I guess this is where I summarize who I am and what I’m about.. sheesh, what a task. Well, I guess a good place to start is Jesus. I am who I am and I have what I have because of the sweet, sweet grace of my Jesus. He has been my best friend in times where it felt like I had no one, my safe place when my world was in turmoil, and the strong father to cradle me when I was weak, which has been a significant portion of my life.
When I was in high school, I lost someone very close to me, and I became angry with God, broken and confused as to why, if he could do anything at any moment, he wouldn’t save the man who raised me- the closest thing to a father I had ever known. I ran and hid from him, choosing to live my own way. When this way of living led me closer to pain and destruction, and eventually brought me to my knees, I was afraid He would never take me back, that I had gone too far away, that he had stopped pursuing me.
In the moment I began to wonder if he could ever love me the same way, the moment I considered the decision to ask him to forgive me, I was immensely overwhelmed with waves upon waves of his grace. He had been running after me, waiting just behind me, until the moment I chose to let him back in.
In recent years, I have come to terms with my personal battle with depression. After being quiet about my struggle for far too long, I have decided to try to speak about what I have learned, and what living this life has taught me.
I guess my goal in this whole blog thing is to use what God has done in my life to speak to others who might be struggling with the same thing. The most significant way I’ve seen to combat the effects of depression is to prove to myself and to others that we are in this and we are stronger together.
Loneliness doesn’t win.
The lies don’t get to win.
All my love,